Previously Unpublished Post (PUP)- I wrote the post below three months ago and saved it as a draft. Time to dust it off and share. At the time I wrote this, my life revolved around mourning the loss of all those things I believed I had lost because I had my world designed around the one I loved.After I discovered the truth about how my well-being was never even an afterthought in his reality, I had lost my sense of purpose.
Today, I no longer dwell of what I have “lost” because in discovering the context of my previous life, I know I never really had them to begin with. My life before was illusion – true to me, but not reality. Somewhere I was able to shift my belief, find purpose and value in what I do know I have, and begin to move forward into my next chapter.
Without further ado – A PUP from 3 months post-discovery:
I hate that your actions have robbed me of so much, so many of the happy things I had going right in my life.
Someone to care about.
Someone who worried about me when roads were bad.
Someone who was happy to see me.
Someone to laugh and giggle with
Really awesome sex
Someone I believed would think about how their actions would affect me before they acted
Hope for a forever future
Comforting arms to come home to
Hugs and touch
A reason to plan meals
Happiness and joy
Encouragement to discover who I was
Someone who was truly interested in learning more about who I was and my passion for my career
Writer, You took that away from me. I do not hate YOU; I hate what your disrespect of me has robbed me of.