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How Could I Not See It All

Another blow to the heart today. This past summer my neighbor’s daughter and a friend spent a night at my home. I had a twin in guest bedroom and a sleeper couch in living room. Near the end of the … Continue reading

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Emptiness and longing

The funny thing is, when I was finally able to break ties with my former husband I relished the time alone. I did not feel tense coming home from work, anticipating him to be passed out drunk on his recliner, … Continue reading

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Welcome Distraction

Solving technical issues in my home remodel is a great distraction. It is one of the few things I get motivated about and enjoy somewhat these days. Writer stopped by for a bit, he said his wife had something going … Continue reading

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Should I Just Chuck It All and Walk Away… I Don’t want to

Today was a good day and a bad day. I had invited Writer to go for a walk in the woods with me. The leaves are past their peak colors, but still very beautiful. I knew they were beautiful in … Continue reading

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Another month has slipped by…

Anxiety has decreased considerably and depression is lessened, but still hangs on with a vengeance. The hardest part, aside from the ever present loneliness, is living in emotional limbo. The love of my life has hurt me. The relatively minor … Continue reading

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What To Do If the World Were Ending in 21 Days (Part II)

After pondering how I would spend my time knowing everything would be gone, I reflected upon deeper thoughts: Knowing the world isn’t ending in 21 days. Today I started stocking my display case at a local thrift/antique shop. I need … Continue reading

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What To Do If The World Were Ending in 21 Days? (Part One)

I just finished watching Seeking A Friend For The End of The World with the nice neighbor lady. A beautiful story of love, loss, and forgiveness for a rainy evening. Some thoughts passed my mind as I was watching. What … Continue reading

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