Monthly Archives: December 2015

GPS Track Your Cheater or Liar

Posted on December 28, 2015 by Apophenias

Tired of not trusting your partner who has cheated and/or lied to you? I saw a Pet GPS tracker advertised today. My first thought was, if I had an inkling of getting back together with “him”, I would be sorely … Continue reading →

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Can I Avoid Synchronicity?

Posted on December 24, 2015 by Apophenias

Rarely in a breakup is one person 100% at fault. With Writer, aside from the blatant issues that most definitely are his alone, there were other issues. Why did he tell me he could see only being with me physically … Continue reading →

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Breaking Up Pain Described Perfectly

Posted on December 23, 2015 by Apophenias

Infographics & comics rarely come close when describing emotional realms, IMO. Yet Cherlyn Chong got it pretty close, perhaps perfectly on the pain side.. I’m still in pain, so I can’t relate to the healing side of her work just … Continue reading →

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How It Hurts, An Anaology

Posted on December 19, 2015 by Apophenias

I am still hurting. I have taken the step of Blocking Writer on Facebook to help stop me from being able to actively look at his feed. It wasn’t enough to simply unfollow. And yet that wasn’t enough. My PTSD … Continue reading →

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Similarities

Posted on December 17, 2015 by Apophenias

One the techniques I was offered to attempt to short circuit my PTSD obsessed brain was to try to replace thoughts of Writer with focus on other happier memories. My post yesterday, a poem about my childhood cat,  I Miss … Continue reading →

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I Miss Coming Home to You

Posted on December 16, 2015 by Apophenias

I miss coming home to you, your eyes lighting up as you would dash across the room to greet me. Stroking your neck and back while we sat on the couch. You listened quietly as I told you about my … Continue reading →

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Without Context

Posted on December 16, 2015 by Apophenias

“I’ve come to realize it just doesn’t mean anything without some sort of context. And that’s what she was, my context” Quote from the movie A Perfect Man I’ve lost my context. Except even if I had him back, I … Continue reading →

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Perfect Beings

Posted on December 13, 2015 by Apophenias

Do you recall the story about how we were once complete, perfect Beings, only we were torn apart into two halves and cursed to search for our remainder to regain that completeness? I feel like Writer was my other half, … Continue reading →

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Resources for Those Who Love or Have Been Affected by a Sex Addict or Sex Offender

Posted on December 12, 2015 by Apophenias

I love a sex addict / sex offender. While I have chosen to move on (at least I’m trying to), I am still deeply affected by the relationship. In addition to counseling there are resources to help. The best list … Continue reading →

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How Could I Not See It All

Posted on December 9, 2015 by Apophenias

Another blow to the heart today. This past summer my neighbor’s daughter and a friend spent a night at my home. I had a twin in guest bedroom and a sleeper couch in living room. Near the end of the … Continue reading →

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