Tag Archives: abuse

My EMDR Journey 1

Posted on May 10, 2016 by Apophenias

I started the preliminaries for EMDR.  Haven’t gotten into the meat of it yet, however I’m very optimistic about it. Even with one session we have identified how interconnected are the events and situations that create triggers for me. This … Continue reading →

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Bonfire Alone

Posted on April 17, 2016 by Apophenias

Last night my bonfire was alone, and very short. I was OK. Had a nice phone convo with a close friend I stopped actively spending time with after leaving Ex Al. She didn’t take sides, stayed friends with both of … Continue reading →

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Living is Hard

Posted on April 15, 2016 by Apophenias

I have lived through so much that no one deserves to endure. Life is so hard. I want to have an equal to share life with. Is that so much to desire? At the moment, it feels as if All … Continue reading →

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How Goes the Healing – An Update

Posted on February 25, 2016 by Apophenias

3 months after Discovery Day I posted how I was doing. It is just over 6 months now, and I wanted to give an update to share with those newly discovering their own situations that it can get easier. Learning … Continue reading →

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GPS Track Your Cheater or Liar

Posted on December 28, 2015 by Apophenias

Tired of not trusting your partner who has cheated and/or lied to you? I saw a Pet GPS tracker advertised today. My first thought was, if I had an inkling of getting back together with “him”, I would be sorely … Continue reading →

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He Never Loved Me Enough…

Posted on December 2, 2015 by Apophenias

I try not to look. Sometimes I do, and that’s always a mistake.  He’s convinced himself that I “never loved him.” It becomes a fascinating look into perspective.  As my perspective is that he never loved me enough to stop … Continue reading →

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How to Apologize: It’s Not as Simple as Saying I’m Sorry

Posted on November 12, 2015 by Apophenias

a·pol·o·gy a regretful acknowledgment of an offense or failure. A simple apology of “I’m sorry” all to often is simply not enough to prompt the recipient of the sentiment to let go of their pain. So simple may appear to … Continue reading →

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Too Little, Too Late (Or is it?)

Posted on November 7, 2015 by Apophenias

The following being said, I add the disclaimer that it is NEVER too late to make amends, offer real apologies, and take actions to mitigate the pain and suffering one has caused another. I’m angry, nay, I’m pissed! How can … Continue reading →

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A new direction

Posted on August 27, 2015 by Apophenias

So begins my journey healing from a relationship with a man with probable sexual addiction, low self-esteem, ADD, and alcohol issues. What I had often described as the most fulfilling love of my life was throughout also the most emotionally … Continue reading →

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Beacon Days from Abuse Long Past

Posted on July 27, 2015 by Apophenias

There are days that stand out as becons, their rays of emotional turmoil showing themselves on quiet, dark moments. They no longer appear as often in my mind, thankfully. And yet, tonight, one keeps surfacing. Why? Why am I experiencing … Continue reading →

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