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Blank

Posted on May 30, 2016 by Apophenias

Blank The canvas of my romantic future Now whitewashed with despair Shall the previous paint bleed through Marring the portrait yet to be created? Inspired by Today’s “One Word Prompt” – http://wp.me/p23sd-12cv Image Source

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Another Confirmation that I Don’t Matter

Posted on May 20, 2016 by Apophenias

This week was ex Al’s birthday I reminded our son that his father would probably really appreciate at least a call. Why did I do that? On the day, I got a text meant for the ex from some family … Continue reading →

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GPS Track Your Cheater or Liar

Posted on December 28, 2015 by Apophenias

Tired of not trusting your partner who has cheated and/or lied to you? I saw a Pet GPS tracker advertised today. My first thought was, if I had an inkling of getting back together with “him”, I would be sorely … Continue reading →

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Without Context

Posted on December 16, 2015 by Apophenias

“I’ve come to realize it just doesn’t mean anything without some sort of context. And that’s what she was, my context” Quote from the movie A Perfect Man I’ve lost my context. Except even if I had him back, I … Continue reading →

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He Never Loved Me Enough…

Posted on December 2, 2015 by Apophenias

I try not to look. Sometimes I do, and that’s always a mistake.  He’s convinced himself that I “never loved him.” It becomes a fascinating look into perspective.  As my perspective is that he never loved me enough to stop … Continue reading →

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How to Apologize: It’s Not as Simple as Saying I’m Sorry

Posted on November 12, 2015 by Apophenias

a·pol·o·gy a regretful acknowledgment of an offense or failure. A simple apology of “I’m sorry” all to often is simply not enough to prompt the recipient of the sentiment to let go of their pain. So simple may appear to … Continue reading →

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Too Little, Too Late (Or is it?)

Posted on November 7, 2015 by Apophenias

The following being said, I add the disclaimer that it is NEVER too late to make amends, offer real apologies, and take actions to mitigate the pain and suffering one has caused another. I’m angry, nay, I’m pissed! How can … Continue reading →

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Getting Out of the Funk – Slowly

Posted on November 6, 2015 by Apophenias

In the dictionary, next the definition of Codependent, is a picture of me. Most of my friends are amazed at my capacity for “holding in there” in relationships that clearly hurt. They call me “strong.” Perhaps they are just being … Continue reading →

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What To Do If the World Were Ending in 21 Days (Part II)

Posted on September 19, 2015 by Apophenias

After pondering how I would spend my time knowing everything would be gone, I reflected upon deeper thoughts: Knowing the world isn’t ending in 21 days. Today I started stocking my display case at a local thrift/antique shop. I need … Continue reading →

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Beacon Days from Abuse Long Past

Posted on July 27, 2015 by Apophenias

There are days that stand out as becons, their rays of emotional turmoil showing themselves on quiet, dark moments. They no longer appear as often in my mind, thankfully. And yet, tonight, one keeps surfacing. Why? Why am I experiencing … Continue reading →

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