Category Archives: Sex addiction

Living is Hard

Posted on April 15, 2016 by Apophenias

I have lived through so much that no one deserves to endure. Life is so hard. I want to have an equal to share life with. Is that so much to desire? At the moment, it feels as if All … Continue reading →

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Time Capsule

Posted on April 1, 2016 by Apophenias

Inspired by Finding Bits And Pieces Of Me – http://wp.me/p6vDTM-NL In two short months I will be full time in my “new” old family home. After almost a year filled with remodels, slowly bringing bits down, but mostly curled in … Continue reading →

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I Hate What You Did To Me

Posted on February 27, 2016 by Apophenias

Previously Unpublished Post  (PUP)- I wrote the post below three months ago and saved it as a draft. Time to dust it off and share. At the time I wrote this, my life revolved around mourning the loss of all … Continue reading →

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How Goes the Healing – An Update

Posted on February 25, 2016 by Apophenias

3 months after Discovery Day I posted how I was doing. It is just over 6 months now, and I wanted to give an update to share with those newly discovering their own situations that it can get easier. Learning … Continue reading →

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My Journey Through PTSD Continues

Posted on February 17, 2016 by Apophenias

It is amazing how unpredictable the effects of #PTSD can be. One moment I can be totally unaffected, as if the turmoil from my relationship with Writer and my childhood never existed, and the next moment frozen, unable to function … Continue reading →

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Mixed Day

Posted on February 1, 2016 by Apophenias

Today had good aspects and not so good. I guess that’s life. Writer getting the last item was good. I was able to be civil, not bringing up the money issue because I wanted a good emotional day myself. I … Continue reading →

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I just want it to be over

Posted on January 31, 2016 by Apophenias

Tomorrow is one step closer to letting go of Writer., as he picks up the last item of his possessions in my keep. There will only remain the issue of the money I gave him, which if returned I am … Continue reading →

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GPS Track Your Cheater or Liar

Posted on December 28, 2015 by Apophenias

Tired of not trusting your partner who has cheated and/or lied to you? I saw a Pet GPS tracker advertised today. My first thought was, if I had an inkling of getting back together with “him”, I would be sorely … Continue reading →

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How It Hurts, An Anaology

Posted on December 19, 2015 by Apophenias

I am still hurting. I have taken the step of Blocking Writer on Facebook to help stop me from being able to actively look at his feed. It wasn’t enough to simply unfollow. And yet that wasn’t enough. My PTSD … Continue reading →

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Without Context

Posted on December 16, 2015 by Apophenias

“I’ve come to realize it just doesn’t mean anything without some sort of context. And that’s what she was, my context” Quote from the movie A Perfect Man I’ve lost my context. Except even if I had him back, I … Continue reading →

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